9:30 PM
something is bothering me.but i cant seem to figure out what isit.i want to study.i want to do well in my As.but i seem to be feeling depressed all the time. i feel stupid-iers day by day. nothing is going into my brain. i sleep too much. or i cant even sleep. life is wasted on living. byebye and good luck everybody.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006

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8:38 PM
For wang hao. love is blind. dont regret what u nvr did but ought to do.
For liye. study hard and dont laxing alr.
for samuel. for all you know. she might be playing a fool.
for jierong. jiayou for ur happiness
Saturday, October 14, 2006

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11:55 PM
Melancholy.
For the truth, i cheer!
Thursday, October 12, 2006

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11:15 PM

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

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12:31 PM
one season just ended.hc pingpong got 2nd.the next season just started.hope i can do well in it and thats for myself.got ta train harder.too weak already!!!
must sprint faster and last longer man! if not gg...there goes my medal!
anyway..eight below is nice ! maya and max so cute!!! i swear i am going to get siberian husky next time!!
" You have chance for the things you care"
i do believe in it...
Sunday, April 30, 2006

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10:53 PM
hmm to prev post! its not one sided.its because i type den it seem so.ya..very sorry you u all think that way! and btw! its all in chinese! not ang mo!!
Tuesday, January 17, 2006

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9:53 PM
blogs dead.shall attempt to revive it.
first thing first.start of jc2 life.not very good.homework piling up.brain empty.
two junior classes. 63 n 6b. both are fun classses..both today i realise they are so muggerish! omg!! please do not break the tradition.WHEN is JTS! if any junior happen to read my dead blog..i am dreading j2 life...


now
i am in a dilemma.stuck at the bottom of abyss just like lappy.he actually advices me tonight. just ! its regarding a decision that i got to make that will affect him,hc ping pong and most importantly myself.

(in ping pong hall)
L : what day training you want? mon wed or fri?
F: hmm..mon lah? you steady anot?i about 4pm dismiss..
L: cannot lah..i got phy s till 5pm? then after that go trg kum lan?
F: Wah lao! but i dun feel like wed or friday leh? i got cycling training..sigh..
L: faster decide leh? just dun go cycle lah!!!
F: sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
L : FASTER LAH!! KNN!!
F: i think first den i confirm with u tonight! ok?
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(Walking to 7 eleven...)
L :ehh..faster leh..so u want wed or friday? mon i confirm cannot! seriously no point going there play ball awhile on monday!
F : i duno leh..i cant decide leh..i decide then i tell you.meanwhile i ask the guy first...
L :just dun cycle lah! just dun cycle!
F :serious.. i tonight go home then tell you..serious lor..i think we double damn lan lah.no mentailty lor. win first two sets then after that slack den we lose. damn fuck lor. we must train mental lor..
L : aiya! not mental lah..is like that one..some times win some times lose..its ok de.. you think u can win everytime meh?
F: wonder....did we win any match after so long??hmm...
L :aiya! can one lah can one lah..eh decide leh..wed or friday?
F: dunoo leh..
L :aiya just go on friday lah..pon ur bike lah.. if i go with u on wed or something i need to go extra leh. damn shiong..serious lah..dun bike lah..bike got what use? you see..u mon run tues trg wed bike thurs trg friday trg sat ride sun ride + dragon boat. u think u king can cope meh? this year a level year leh..cannot play paly lor.
F: can one lah..confirm can one! discipline!!
L: you think u wont get tired both physically and mentally meh? you see today GPS..the teacher knnb de..bombard us with so many fucking homework..u dun feel the presssure meh? and u think leh..now is only the starting leh..when halfway all the subjects pile up you think u can cope meh?you seriously can cope meh?
F : can one lah..u think i wont study one meh?aiya..realaxing leh.. after june the full engine lah..can one lor!
L :just dun cylce lah..it will affect u one lor. you think u wont get tired meh?you see now i starting to get serious in ping pong liao and i tried to train very hard today.den noe u suddenly like dat.will affect me and the whole team lor.even you say it wont affect.but indirectly will one.we must train train train and fight to get to finals nget gold. now u even cannot attend formal trg sessions how can? we need to improve on our basics after slacking so long lor.you know we not even confirm in first 7 lor.we must fight for it you know? if we dun train our doubles well. you think we can play? you want to be like last year meh? if u drop urself. you are in directly dropping me too. i dun wan lor. i got an aim to acheive you know!
F : sighh....drop den drop lah..i also no passion and sian liao..what to do? i do not want to waste another year not doing cylcing.i already wasted last yr.if i waste this year again..i am going to waste 4 yrs in totalwhich includes 2 years ns leh..cannot lor..i dun care lah.. i want to ride lah..riding is my passion n hobby!
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(outside shell station)
L : seriously lah. just dun cycle lah.its no point lor.u cannot concenrate on 3 things lor..u wont have the time n engery lah..u will reach a point when eveything just come at one go and u get so stress and duno what to do.and u will peng kui! by the time when u want to recover also too late lor.
F: aiya..just let me try first..den i decide again..if really cannot den i drop lor..ya..
( suddenly jing min walk pass! eyes turn in her direction.pause for 3 min!! whahaha)
L : seriously lah..dun cycle lah..waste time lor..u should really decide what to do lor.. u cannot do so many thing at one time.
(fast forward.cut short my reply)

L: you just dun cycle lah. u should just concentrate on ping pong lor. you list the advantages and disadvantages then very obvious liao.what advantages? personal glory? own sastifaction? medal? passion?
what disadvantages? i can name you alot lor . you will affect the whole team. you will afftec me. you wont get to play finals at toa payoh sports hall. you will make the coach lesser choice to put who to paly. when u bike win something but we lose the championship you see everybody sian sian and u down there am chio you think very good meh? this is the last year you can play as a team and get the feeling of it lor. you think when u go play for safsa or ntu or nus you will get the same feeling? and ur classmates confrim go support you when in finals lor. you think about it. you already wasted one year and going to waste 2 more yers in ns. u rather this year ur bike damn shong den nxt 2 yrs wasted or just waste 3 yrs and conc n ping pong now?remeber your decision affects alot pple.not only yourself.when u grow older 30 40 years you still can bike.but u think u will get the same feeling when play as a team? espicaly now the snr team so close now.u rather let them go thorugh this themselves meh? the team glory is much better then your own glory lor. u think. you are now running 2 marathons already.if u add two more.do u seriouslythink you can complete? n successful.ur body cannot take it lor. somemore this year a level damn shiong n it determines ur future. you want to let ur parents get upsets becuz u went to bike and get poor results.when u think back at the end of the year and u din get what u want. u hwill think that if starting of the year i dun choose to cylce. will i get better results?just drop cycling and concentrate lah...


alot more not type here.but bascially thats the main point.what should i do! haizz?somebody help me....
L :


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10:23 PM
always remembered.
peaceful.
love forever.
memorable 16 years of my life.
grew stronger n older.
Friday, November 18, 2005

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